Quick Update

Have job. Start Monday. Negotiated start a week earlier for an extra half hour a day than was previously expected.

Have tax refund.

May soon have apartment. More later.

Anxiety levels very high. Expect manic swings and drops in energy and strange phrases issuing from my mouth; not sleeping well.

My insurance still hasn't approved the diaphragm my doc prescribed three weeks ago!

Good things: have drum -- she sings! (more later) Have sweet child and good friends/family. Can see ways of adaptation and survival. Scared shitless nonetheless, but risks must be taken for growth. Buckwheat costs $15/5 lbs. at Zenith Supply, so ostensibly, I could make my own yoga bolsters/sitting pillows for a third of the price they charge (and a hell of a lot less than East-West Books). You know who let me in on that little secret? The owner. :)

( Poly dream last night: three husbands, two weddings )

Nobody knows what human life is.
Why we come, why we go.
So why then do I know
I will see you,
I will see you in far off places?

The heart knows why I grieve
And yes one day I will close my eyes forever
But I will see you
I will see you in far off places.

It's so easy for us to sit together
But it's so hard for our hearts to combine
And why?
And why?
Why? Why? Why? Why?

Destiny for some is to save lives
But destiny for some is to end lives
But there is no end
And I will see you in far off places.

If your god bestows protection upon you
And if the USA doesn't bomb you
I believe I will see you somewhere safe
Looking to the camera, messing around
and pulling faces.