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neversremedy8Before I head back to my writing journal for the week...
It's insane, I know. A 31 year old, 260 lb. woman with bad knees from years of dance thinking of even aiming for Parkour training as a goal, but that's exactly what I'm doing. I don't know how long it will take me, or if I'll ever really be able to leap tall buildings in several clever steps and a few hundred rolls (it'll probably look something more like this and nothing like this), but my ideas are never small and easily achievable, unless I'm planning my attack on the dishes. Since I don't have the health insurance to check out my knees and see if they need surgery or just some good physical therapy, I'm starting by researching the latter so I can work to strength the muscles around my knees to give them better support (it isn't going to hurt them, at least). My upper body strength isn't as good as it was when I carried Ana around everywhere, and my core muscles need improvement. So, plan of action: strengthen, build stamina, and tone up some of the core. Then we'll see where that takes me.
My brain, of course, likes to remind me how easily distracted I become. It says things like, "But Raven, what about poi spinning? You've got old socks and tennis balls up there, and you never, ever put them together and practiced!" This is true, but that has more to do with logistics (or so I like to tell myself, since it's warm earlier this year, I could do this in my own yard). If the learning experience requires getting to some place that requires transportation other than my feet, then it's a logistical negotiation. As it is, I'm still trying to negotiate Ana's aerialist classes.
But what I'm talking about starting only requires my environment at any given time, and we have lots to work with: exercise ball, yoga supplies, my old portable ballet bar, stairs, floor, and a big, tangly backyard.
Perhaps by the time I make these changes within myself, I'll have the means to get around more and find instructors who can show me the next steps.
But seriously, I can't keep living in pain and illness all the time. In mid-June, I graduate, and I'll need to seek out a form of employment (assuming my co-author and I haven't found a publisher and been told we're the most promising thing since [insert famous author here], and they lavish us with money all within the next four months), which means I can't take two or three days a week off for sick days. Even with this degree, without my Masters, I won't have many options as an anthropologist, and I dread saying this, but might have to revert back to my customer service/administrative skills to survive.
*laughs* I typed that with a straight face. We all know that the jobs I've had in the past don't provide a living wage, and the degree I'm getting, while useful on many levels within any job or work with other people, isn't likely to swing a lot of weight for money anyway (link clicky! it's worth it!). I'm starting to wonder if I should put in my proposal for next quarter's independent study the provision of time for me to look into grants and non-profit jobs that can best utilize my skills. Something tells me it'll be ok with Holly, so long as I put in further networking with the RSOL/CFCWashington and local reps.
Enough tangent! The short of it is: I'm working to become the man I always wanted to fall in love with me. Or Marlene Dietrich. Either, way, I think I'll enjoy myself more. ^_^
It's insane, I know. A 31 year old, 260 lb. woman with bad knees from years of dance thinking of even aiming for Parkour training as a goal, but that's exactly what I'm doing. I don't know how long it will take me, or if I'll ever really be able to leap tall buildings in several clever steps and a few hundred rolls (it'll probably look something more like this and nothing like this), but my ideas are never small and easily achievable, unless I'm planning my attack on the dishes. Since I don't have the health insurance to check out my knees and see if they need surgery or just some good physical therapy, I'm starting by researching the latter so I can work to strength the muscles around my knees to give them better support (it isn't going to hurt them, at least). My upper body strength isn't as good as it was when I carried Ana around everywhere, and my core muscles need improvement. So, plan of action: strengthen, build stamina, and tone up some of the core. Then we'll see where that takes me.
My brain, of course, likes to remind me how easily distracted I become. It says things like, "But Raven, what about poi spinning? You've got old socks and tennis balls up there, and you never, ever put them together and practiced!" This is true, but that has more to do with logistics (or so I like to tell myself, since it's warm earlier this year, I could do this in my own yard). If the learning experience requires getting to some place that requires transportation other than my feet, then it's a logistical negotiation. As it is, I'm still trying to negotiate Ana's aerialist classes.
But what I'm talking about starting only requires my environment at any given time, and we have lots to work with: exercise ball, yoga supplies, my old portable ballet bar, stairs, floor, and a big, tangly backyard.
Perhaps by the time I make these changes within myself, I'll have the means to get around more and find instructors who can show me the next steps.
But seriously, I can't keep living in pain and illness all the time. In mid-June, I graduate, and I'll need to seek out a form of employment (assuming my co-author and I haven't found a publisher and been told we're the most promising thing since [insert famous author here], and they lavish us with money all within the next four months), which means I can't take two or three days a week off for sick days. Even with this degree, without my Masters, I won't have many options as an anthropologist, and I dread saying this, but might have to revert back to my customer service/administrative skills to survive.
*laughs* I typed that with a straight face. We all know that the jobs I've had in the past don't provide a living wage, and the degree I'm getting, while useful on many levels within any job or work with other people, isn't likely to swing a lot of weight for money anyway (link clicky! it's worth it!). I'm starting to wonder if I should put in my proposal for next quarter's independent study the provision of time for me to look into grants and non-profit jobs that can best utilize my skills. Something tells me it'll be ok with Holly, so long as I put in further networking with the RSOL/CFCWashington and local reps.
Enough tangent! The short of it is: I'm working to become the man I always wanted to fall in love with me. Or Marlene Dietrich. Either, way, I think I'll enjoy myself more. ^_^
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Date: 2010-02-28 06:40 pm (UTC)i might note that i started aerial silks when i was forty. and so did my instructor (who's a few years older than i....)
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Date: 2010-02-28 06:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-28 08:31 pm (UTC)go for it! :)))
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Date: 2010-02-28 09:59 pm (UTC)31! You're a kid yet! You can do it!
And I think movement, any kind of movement is good for the body- just move... helps to flush out tissues and get blood and lymph moving throughout the system- I think it's a great idea!
xo
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Date: 2010-03-01 12:29 am (UTC)Parkour is awesome!
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Date: 2010-03-02 11:15 am (UTC)